Monday, March 19, 2012

Assalamualaikum...
Dear Diary...

Alhamdulillah... i received good news.. or not literally dat lah...its juz dat i'm happy...
td pagi I read yesterday Berita Harian... n alhamdulillah... my 2nd sajak was out... after 3 yrs dat my first sajak was out..alhamdulillah its out again...

kali ni i btl2 berpuas hati sbb sajak yg keluar tulah sajak yg paling i suke... nak katakan sajak tu btl2 dicipta cr pengalaman i sendr... sebenarnya i bwd sajak tu utk kawan yg paling raaaapaaaat ngan i... its was based on our friendship.. i tak taulah samada dia baca atau tak... i pon tak tau samada dia sedar atau tak sajak tu sebenarnya utk dia...
tp i harap sgt dia da baca n sedar... bcause seriusly i mmg hargai dia.. n i hargai sgt2 persahabatan kirang..persahabatan yg terjalin da lebih dr 4 tahun... bayangkan brapa punya lama tu... kita dah bnyk tahu tntng satu sama lain.. dah faham sgt perangai each other...

dan sbb tulah i cipta sajak tu utk dia... tp sebenarnya ada lg sajak yg i cipta utk dia... atas dasar persahabatan kita... dan setiap sajak tu ada setting tersndr... ada yg waktu i rindu sgt ngan dia.. ada yg waktu i rasa kirng dah jauh dr satu sama lain... ada yg waktu i rasa dia da berubah...

so mungkin nxt time akn keluar sajak2 yg lain plk.... tak pon i akan simpan jelah dlm bk sajak i tu...

but anyways... td sunshine approach i psl sajak i... i was happy.. but not so happy.... sbb i harapkan dia yg approach i psl sajak.. blhlah i blg sajak tu i cipta utk dia... tp harapan itu musnah begitu saja... but sunshine did congratule me n said sajak i was not bad... he was happy... n of course i'm TOUCHED XD...

apa2 pon kte tnggu jelah eh ble my next sajakakn kuar.. harap2lah tak lama sgt mcm kali ni...

ok lah dats all for today... i nak tido dah ni... esk skool day... haiz... will update again ok... perhaps will update abt my burfdae wish... XD ya abt less than a month more to my burfdae... so stay tuned ok ^^

bbyez...
Wassalam...

-11.59pm(sunday)-



Saturday, March 17, 2012

Assalamualaikum...
Dear Diary...

Masya Allah.... penatnya hari ni.... penat sangat....

went to EXPO today wif Kak Wany n hubby n the kids too.... usual plan was dat we r going to the Popular Sale... but end up we went to 3 expo hall sale.... halal food n wedding sale...popular sale....kids n babies sale.... fuhh.... sebab tulah penat giler....

reached there at abt 2pm.... n we went back at 8pm...bayangkan 6 jam pat situ!!!! mana tak penat... haiz.... but after all... i had fun too!!!! seriusly speaking... i memang happy n suke klu kluar ngan my first sis... she n her hubby memang sporting giler...diorg pon selalu belanja i.... sebab tu i suke.... XD

Alhamdulillah jgk... mlm ni almost part of my problems....settle.... sepanjang waktu balik semalam i 'curheart' ngan sis... i was worried abt our financial problems... my mind was full of payments n things to be settled...Alhamdulillah.. we manage to find ways to settle them...sis tell dat she will help me to settle my payments by paying half of it.. so tak berat sgtlah utk i...

den regarding our business... alhamdulillah the basic plan had settled.. so skrg tinggal nak kene beli brg2 je... for our candy corner first project for wedding... insyaAllah if its successfull.. will upgrade the business futher more...

abt my current tuition job... sis help me to finalise what to do... so we decide dat i will finish off teaching the current p6 student till june... so sis will now slowly advertise abt the tuition...insyaAllah by june i will have 2-3 students to teach... so by den i hope i can slowly help mama n ayah manage our family finance... fuhh... pening jgk kepala asik kene fikir psl duit...

u wanna knw... almost everyday i kept thinking how am i going to settle all the probs??? what i'm suppose to do?? runsing sgt... hampir hari2 i rasa resah...

tp walau mcm mana pon... i selalu berdoa agar diberi kekuatan utk hadapi segala dugaan ini...

dats all for today... bbyez...

wassalam

-11.59pm-













Friday, March 16, 2012

Assalamualaikum...
Dear Diary...

Today was quite fun.... had a mini reunion wif some of the S5BOOMZ gurls at umah Syahirah... tp tak ramai yg join... sbb masing2 ada hal... ada yg keje.. sekolah...busy btol...
we had movie marathon as well... paling tak blh angkat ble dorg nak tgk citer hantu... FLAT 3A... merana oi!!! i smpi tak pegi class mlm ni sbb takut alik mlm nnti...
tp pape pon... i really enjoyed my day today... miss my babes.... hope to meet them again...

but a bit down jgk lah hari ni... i rasa... i tak bllah ada time alone... i asik berfikir je... samapi kusut jdnya... but i need those time alone... need to relax too...

nthlah i pon tak tau nape i rasa mcm ni... kadang2 tu i rasa nape susah sgt i nak berjaya? nape susah sgt i nak bahagia? besar btol ujian Allah utk i...
yg i harapkan skrg cuma diberikan kekuatan... itu je... i seakan rasa semakin lama semakin lemah.... May Allah bless me...

perhaps dats all for now... need my break...

Wassalam...

-11.59pm-







Thursday, March 15, 2012

Assalamualaikum....

Dear Diary.... Hey i'm back from holiday.... actually last tues mlm dah balik... tp i was too tired... so takda mood nak update....

Anyway... ehm... how was my holiday??? it was oklah...tak bnyk shopping... more relaxing holiday actually... we went off on Fri night @ about 10pm.... lepas tu we reached our apartment @ Melaka @ about 5am... then @ about 11 am we headed off to KL... not much shopping we did there... cause smpai sana da petang... reached back @ Melaka @ 1am... so days after dat... we spend all our time at Melaka only... it was quite fun... spending time wif my family...esp wif my siblings... joking wif them really make my day....

Despite all the happiness we had there.... there are bit of unawkwardness(i knw it doesnt feels rite).... my mum,me n both my sis.... discussed abt our family matters.... we mainly talk abt our financial problems... the conversation was quite tensed.... but i was glad dat both my sis,kak wany n kak nana... support me wif what i'm doing now.... tp mcm biasalah i... asl bebual ngan family je sensitive....smpi kene kacau dgn kakak sendri... she said.. bwd ape nak nanges... tak pyh nanges2 ni.. tgk kak ana ni... kebal je tau.... XD

actually mama was a bit reluctant of me working... which currently i'm a tutor.... but both sis actually convinced mama dat no matter how i still have to find income for the family too... at least lah for my own duit pocket.... there was a bit of arguement between mama n sis... tp akhirnya mama ikhlaskan jgk....i was asked... puas tak dpt duit sndri.... of course i said i puas... sekurang-kurangnya i ada my own money bile i nak beli pape... i kumpol duit sendri... dat was how both sis convinced mama dat i should keep on wif my tutor job...

so now.... i was told to find more students for tuition... paling kurang pon ajar ngaji....
but they also told me to quit teaching my current student.... susah lah ajar bdk tu... dahlah dia klu nk blaja ikot mood je... pastu suka2 je tukar2 hari tuition....
ok... enough wif all dis tensed n sad story.... lets move on...

so... though i was away from singapore... i still keep in touch in FB... to knw of any updates...
got to know a few happy news....IMG results dat were fascinating... Syu getting engaged... n reunioun dat will be held on Syu engagement day.... BEST!!!
confirm bdk2 S5B rewang... takpon... pagi2 lg kte akn dtg umah Syu.. tolong2 apa yg patut.... i cant wait for dat day!! definitely for the reunioun too!!! really miss my S5BOOMZ a lot!!!!! looking forward for the day....

oh ya... i managed to buy some souveneirs for my frinds too @ Melaka.... i ada belikan utk zirah,eysha,sasha,mimi,dyba,farid,kirin,ilyas,hurun,sali..... cuma i tak tau bile i blh bg diorg.... kta kan sume jarang jmpa... masing2 ada life sendri ):
nak spend time together pon da takda masa..... but i really hope we can have a day for us to hang out together n share stories.... or perhaps on my burfday... ehmm... we'll see....

oklah... dats all for now.... will update again okay....
bbyez....

wassalam....

-07.43pm-


Thursday, March 8, 2012

Assalamualaikum...
Dera Diary...

Masya Allah... dah lama kan i tak blog.... sorrylah sayang... i seriously busy sekarang... terlalu bnyk skool stuffs i have to handle... kadan2 tu sampai takda masa utk diri sendiri...
sampai i da saket dua kali...kedua-duanya mungkin disebabkan i terlalu stress sebab selalunya i blh tahan n control the pain... i was MC on last wed...as well as yesterday...
masa seakan begitu cepat berjalan.... sekarang dah nak masuk March holiday... means term 1 da nak habis... cepatkan masa berlalu... rasanya mcm baru smlm i graduate... klu blh diputarkan balik waktu.. i nak sgt kembali ke waktu zaman STE n O'LEVEL.... terlalu banyak kenangan manis kita bersama....

apa pon sepanjang dua bulan di Wak Tanjong banyak benda baru dan pengalaman baru yang aku pelajari baik dari teman2 mahupun guru2nya....
tentunya semua keadaan yang baru ini menjadikan aku lebih matang... dan sentiasa berusaha untuk berjaya... aku dapat merasakan perubahan ini dlm diriku... dan tanpa disangka... sekarang aku pon dah pakai spectacles! hehehe.... itulah antara perubahan diriku yg amat ketara.... dan pujian yg pertama aku dapat.. aku nmpk manis bila memakai cermin mata.... hehehe... terharu sngt... dan terima ksih bwd kwn ku itu yg telah memuji ku....
teman2 seperjuanganku di pre-u 1 amat peramah.... aku senang berkwn dgn mereka.... nak kata senanglah nak 'click'.... diorg pon kelakar jgk.... kadang2 pon lame jgk... tp lame dorg tu lg lame dr kirng budak irsyad... hehehe.... dgn bdk laki pon senang interact... memang the best lah... tapi tak blhlah lawan ngan SEC5BOOMZ kan... XD


tapi cuma satu je masalahnya... pelajarannya.... guru2nya... expect us to be independant.... esp our math teacher.... paling fed up bila blajar math... teacher suke sngt explain sikit je pastu kasi kirang latihan n kirang bwd sendiri... paling stress blajar math ah... tp klu ngan bdk2 yg amek H2...blh plk dia explain in details...tating giler sei!!!!

apa apa pon... inilah jalan yg telah i pilih... jadi apa pon risikonya.... i kena hadapinya...

oklah.... enough for now ok.... nak blajar Hadith dulu.... esk ada test.... oh no!!!! apa pon semoga Allah permudahkan test kami....Ameen...

-09.40 pm-